Pretending to be happy, sometimes is only an option..!!

Smile, because it's another beautiful day, maybe or maybe not for me. It's just a imagination for me that it's a beautiful day. Sometimes feels like really what I'm doing to myself? Is that really me who used to cherish every little moment, used to laugh everytime, always exploring here and there, joyful and playful. I got lost myself while counting the good future memories and expectations.
Now, it's the situation that I do not believe in living happily and peacefully because time is everything and I don't even have time. I don't know for how long I'll be there. But still living as if it's my last day but I don't know why I'm not feeling happy and joyful, living as if I'm already dead. Am I??
Just counting each seconds and minutes because that's what I have for now and that's what I had left for giving to others in return for whatever they did for me. I know they did a lot for me but I heartfuly apologise to them I have only time that can I give to them. I cried but I know I'm running short of time, but still, smiling and hiding my pain behind a smile and pretending to be happy....
Because, SMILE, IT'S ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL DAY...!!! 😊