Poem: How was I and now!!

Feels like I'm totally lost.. I'm not getting why I'm lost! Sometimes feels like useless and sometimes on the top of the hill..
I used to smile earlier, I used to be upset now..
I used to be talkative earlier, I used to be silent now..
I used to be explorer earlier, I used to be alone now..
I used to be foody earlier, I used to be non-foody now..
I used to be colorful earlier, I used to be colorless now..
I used to be happy earlier, I used to be sad now..
I used to cheerful earlier, I used to be down now..
I used to be smart earlier, I used to be dumb now..
I used to be a child earlier, I used to be an adult now..
I used to be fancy earlier, I used to be simple now..
I used to be laughable earlier, I used to be serious now..
I used to be lovely earlier, I used to be horrible now..
I used to be clear earlier, I used to be lost now..
I am lost..
I'll find my way, one day..
I'll find my way..
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