The thing I regret the most from the day I got matured is being suppressed, suppression of feelings , desires . When I look back of my 20 years , I feel happy for being the most blessed to own such a parents . They did everything to me.
I was the first child and dearest to all. I used to get all stuffs before I ask for. I never wished for anything. As possessed every single thing, I could wish for.
Now, there comes a day where you are grown up . That doesn't mean your wishes , desires are left unseen.
But it's time to achieve self. Yes, parents are still fulfilling it.But there are some desires which cannot be asked for , it can only be fulfilled by implementing on it.
And as you are grown up, understanding the situations. It becomes difficult to talk about your wishes to your parents. It feels like a burden to you parents who are growing older too. And some feelings cannot be shared, due to their differences in understanding it.
As I used to get everything without asking for, my feelings were suppressed by me in a thought why should I convey , as I am getting.
Now the feelings are grown and became more difficult to convey on. And of the feel is, the feel of love which I didn't conveyed neither to that person nor to the fam. Such feelings are being called attraction by fam and ignored. Asked to forget and brain wash.
Today I am matured enough to understand my feel , but not make them understand the feel. As they have seen the vulnerable side of the world, so each person loved by me would be not worthy.
But my feel , my heart says that person is much worthy.
Such feelings cannot be shared and are being suppressed.
