"Ding-dong”, the bell rang once and stopped. It was just six in the morning. Birds were chirping and smoothly blowing breeze entered slowly through the window and touched her. Megha was in her dream, probably in a high class meeting, discussing some matters!! Ringing of the bell shocked her in this morning as it was quite unusual for her in early mornings. She didn’t want to leave the bed, but this early morning event really scared the hell out of her. Her mind was full with unsound thoughts of things like kidnapping, murder and what not!!… etc. & etc. She finally decided to face whatever is waiting outside her door. But for safety reason, she took a stick along with her went for the front door. She was still sleepy and didn’t even able to open her eyes clearly.
3…2…1…!! And she almost took position to strike someone with that stick after opening the door, but… no one was there, not even an insect either. She realised that she was still in that weird position holding the stick. She became very angry on this prank and about to slam the door, but saw something down near the foot mat. It was a flower bouquet, wrapping perfectly with a letter within it. She was surprised as well as confused about what was happening around her. She took the bouquet and came inside. Thought of opening the letter made her curious, but she had decided to freshen up first. She put the bouquet in the table near her bed. Around fifteen minutes later, with a cup of tea, she came into her room and sat on the chair nearby. “DEAR YOU, … FROM YOUR LOVE”, she saw the lines clearly, while taking a sip and she smiled. Finally, she felt some relief but also got little angry at her boyfriend’s freaky work. She wanted to call him but stopped & finished her tea ASAP!! She put the cup aside and took the letter out from the bouquet and took a deep breath. She was super excited as the letter she got from her boyfriend, was the first letter till then.
She opened up the envelop and started reading…
“Dear love…
Take lots of love and hugs from this side. It’s been so long we haven’t talked properly. I know, I know!! Chill. You have been drastically busy now a days with your work. Compared to you, I am less busy!! you know, government departments…
Okay! Now I am coming to the point… I admire you a lot Megha and obviously your work too, but the fact is that I miss you a lot. I know you are busy, but still your late replies, no phone calls, no video chats… sometimes make me worried. You remember right, when I told you to sent me some work, so that I can help you out too and you can make some time for yourself. But as usual, you rejected that offer saying you could do everything by yourself. Before me, everything was good and will go on as usually. So, I stopped there too. I know, you are a very hardworking women seeing your own dreams and tries everyday harder, but sometimes it feels like, I will not fit on those dreams of yours. I know, whenever you are free from work, you pinged me texts or sometimes make calls. Sometimes, it feels okay, but sometimes this feeling sucks!! It feels like I am an obligation, you have to fulfil at the end of the day but not out of love. You noticed or not I don’t know, but there is no happening of conversation between us within these couple of days. I gave you a messages, may be two weeks ago, but you didn’t respond till now. May be, you don’t know, but I am still waiting for your reply, Megha. I may sound stupid or desperate, but I love you and I can’t help it.
I noticed a thing in these couple of days, about us. I noticed you and your desired life, excluding the ‘me’ part. Without me, your life was going very smooth. Every aspect of your life was in the perfect position. It hurts, saying these parts, but I guess it’s true. I realised that, without me also, your life will go on and it will not be affected that much. You will always be better off without me Megha. I don’t want to be just an obligation in your life. I want your love, attention and mostly your time. But I guess you are too busy!! So, I send my first and last letter to you to say a final goodbye!! Don’t call me after reading this letter Megha. I changed my number as well as my address, so that you can never find me. Everything we had between us, all those moments will always be with me…
GOODBYE!! TAKE CARE…
Your love…”
…She wasn’t ready for all of this. She was definitely not expecting such a painful gift covering with the comfort of the flowers. She was trembling at that moment and called him, but… As he mentioned, that number was no longer available. It was that much disastrous moment for her, that she even couldn’t contact him to talk.
She immediately checked her social media, so to find him and talk, but it didn’t work. He already blocked her in every platform. She was all alone in that situation. She was feeling so nervous and disastrous that she threw away everything and ran for search of the pills she had left a long time ago but couldn’t find as she forgot, where she put those pills. She felt like she couldn’t able to breath. She felt her hands trembling like hell, felt like death was near her… She screamed!!! She couldn’t able to hold it anymore and cried a lot, Megha tore apart everything she could till her remaing strength along with the flowers he sent. Lying in the floor all alone, she was checking the last messages he sent two weeks ago. She remembered left the messages at seen and never replied. She realised every mistake she had done in those couple of days, but it was too late for her realisation, because he was gone already. Voice chocked, she started crying again louder & by staring at the screen… She screamed, “I LOST HIM FORVER!!”
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