FORTY FIVE A MONTH

O HANTA could not stay in her class any longer. *^ She had done clay-modelling,
music, drill, a bit of alphabets and numbers, and was now cutting coloured paper. She
would have to cut till the bell rang and the teacher said, " Now, you may all go home,"
or " Put away the scissors and take up your alpha- bets " Shanta was impatient to
know the time.
She asked her friend sitting next, " Is it five now ? " " Maybe," she replied.
" Or is it six ? "
" I don't think so," her friend replied, " because night comes at six."
" Do you think it is five ? "
" Yes."
" Oh, I must go. My father will be back at home now. He has asked me to be ready at
five. He is taking me to the cinema this evening. I must go home." She threw down her
scissors and ran up to the teacher. " Madam, I must go home."
" Why, Shanta Bai ? "
" Because it is five o'clock now."
" Who told you it was five ? "
" Kamala."
" It is not five now. It is do you see the clock there? Tell me what the time is. I taught
you to read the clock the other day." Shanta stood gazing at the clock in the hall,
counted the figures laboriously and declared, " It is nine o'clock."
The teacher called the other girls and said, " Who will tell me the time from that clock ?
" Several of them concurred with Shanta and said it was nine o'clock, till the teacher
said, " You are only seeing the long hand. See the short one, where is it ? "
" Two and a half."
" So what is the time ? "
" Two and a half."
" It is two forty-five, understand ? Now you may all go to your seats " Shanta returned
to the teacher in about ten minutes and asked, " Is it five, Madam, because I have to
be ready at five ? Other- wise my father will be very angry with me. He asked me to
return home early."
" At what time ? "
" Now." The teacher gave her permission to leave, and Shanta picked up her books
and dashed out of the class with a cry of joy. She ran home, threw her books on the
floor, and shouted, " Mother, Mother," and Mother came running from the next house
where she had gone to chat with her friends.
Mother asked, " Why are you back so early ? "
" Has father come home ? " Shanta asked. She would not take her coffee or tiffin, but
insisted on being dressed first. She opened the trunk and insisted on wearing the
thinnest frock and knickers, while her mother wanted to dress her in a long skirt and
thick coat for the evening. Shanta picked out a gorgeous ribbon from a cardboard soap
box in which she kept pencils, ribbons and chalk bits. There was a heated argument
between mother and daughter over the dress, and finally mother had to give in. Shanta
put on her favourite pink frock, braided her hair, and flaunted a green ribbon on her
pigtail. She powdered her face and pressed a vermilion mark on her forehead. She
said, " Now father will say what a nice girl I am because I'm ready. Aren't you also
coming, mother ? "
" Not today."
Shanta stood at the little gate looking down the street.
Mother said : " Father will come only after five ; don't stand in the sun. It is only four
o'clock."
The sun was disappearing behind the house on the opposite row, and Shanta knew
that presently it would be dark. She ran in to her mother and asked, " Why
hasn't father come home yet, mother ? "
" How can I know ? He is perhaps held up in the office."
Shanta made a wry face : " I don't like these people in the office. They are bad people "
She went back to the gate and stood looking out. Her mother shouted from inside : "
Gome in, Shanta. It is getting dark, don't stand there." But Shanta would not go in. She
stood at the gate and a wild idea came to her head. Why should she not go to
the office and call out father and then go to the cinema?
She wondered where his office might be. She had no notion. She had seen her father
take the turn at the end of the street every day. If one went there, one perhaps went
automatically to father's office. She threw a glance about to see if mother was
anywhere and moved down the street.
It was twilight. Everyone going about looked gigantic, walls of houses appeared very
high, and cycles and carriages looked as though they would bear down on her. She
walked on the very edge of the road. Soon the lamps were twinkling : and the passers-
by looked like shadows. She had taken two . turns and did not know where she was.
She sat down on the edge of the road biting her nails. She wondered how she was to
reach home. A servant employed in the next house was passing along, and she picked
herself up and stood before him.
" Oh, what are you doing here all alone ? " he asked. She replied, " I don't know. I
came here. Will you take me to our house ? " She followed him and was soon back in
her house.
Venkat Rao, Shanta's father, was about to start for his office that morning when a jutka
passed along the street distributing cinema handbills. Shanta dashed to the street and
picked up a handbill. She held it up and asked : " Father, will you take me to the
cinema today ? "
He felt unhappy at the question. Here was the child growing up without having any
of the amenities and the simple pleasures of life. He had hardly taken her twice to the
cinema. He had no time for the child. While children of her age in other houses had all
the dolls, dresses, and outings that they wanted, this child was growing up all alone
and like a barbarian more or less. He felt furious with his office. For forty rupees a
month they seemed to have purchased him outright.
He reproached himself for neglecting his wife and child even the wife could have her
own circle of friends and so on : she was after all a grown-up, but what about the child
? What a drab, colourless existence was hers ! Every day they kept him at the office till
seven or eight in the evening and when he came home the child was asleep. Even on
Sundays they wanted him at the office. Why did they think he had no personal life, a
life of his own ? They gave him hardly any time to take the child to the park or the
pictures. He was going to show them that they weren't to toy with him. Yes, he was
prepared even to quarrel with his manager if necessary.
He said with resolve : " I will take you to the cinema this evening. Be ready at five."
" Really ! Mother ! " Shanta shouted. Mother came out of the kitchen.
" Father is taking me to a cinema in the evening."
Shanta's mother smiled cynically. " Don't make false promises to the child "
Venkat Rao glared at her. " Don't talk nonsense. You think you are the only person
who keeps promises "
He told Shanta : " Be ready at five, and I will come and take you positively. If you are
not ready, I will be very angry with you."
He walked to his office full of resolve. He would do his normal work and get out at five.
If they started any old tricks of theirs, he was going to tell the boss : " Here is my
resignation. My child's happiness is more important to me than these horrible papers of
yours." All day the usual stream of papers flowed on to his table and out of it. He
scrutinized, signed, and drafted. He was corrected, admonished, and insulted. He had
a break of only five minutes in the afternoon for his coffee. When the office clock struck
five and the other clerks were leaving, he went up to the manager and said : " May I
go, sir ? " The manager looked up from his paper : " You ! " It was unthinkable that the
cash and account section should be closing at five. " How can you go ? "
" I have some urgent, private business, sir," he said, smothering the lines he had been
rehearsing since the morning : " Herewith my resignation." He visualized Shanta
standing at the door, dressed, and palpitating with eagerness.
" There shouldn't be anything more urgent than the office work ; go back to your seat.
You know how many hours I work ? " asked the manager. The manager came to the
office three hours before the opening time and stayed nearly three hours after closing,
even on Sundays. The clerks commented among themselves : " His wife must be
whipping him whenever he is seen at home ; that is why the old owl seems so fond of
his office."
" Did you trace the source of that Ten-Eight difference ? " asked the manager.
" I shall have to examine two hundred vouchers. I thought we might do it tomorrow."
" No, no, this won't do. You must rectify it immediately." Venkat Rao mumbled, " Yes,
sir," and slunk back to his seat.
The clock showed five-thirty. Now it meant two hours of excruciating search among
vouchers. All the rest of the office had gone. Only he and another clerk in his section
were working, and, of course, the manager was there. Venkat Rao was furious. His
mind was made up. He wasn't a slave who had sold himself for forty rupees outright.
He could make that money easily ; and if he couldn't it would be more honourable to
die of starvation.
He took a sheet of paper and wrote : " Herewith my resignation. If you people think you
have bought me body and soul for forty rupees, you are mistaken. I think it would be
far better for me and my family to die of starvation than slave for this petty forty rupees
on which you have kept me for years and years. I suppose you have not the slightest
notion of giving me an increment. You give yourselves heavy slices frequently, and I
don't see why you shouldn't think of us occasionally. In any case it doesn't interest me
now, since this is my resignation. If I and my family perish of starvation, may our ghosts
come and haunt you all your life "
He folded the letter, put it in an envelope, sealed the flap and addressed it to the
manager. He left his seat and stood before the manager. The manager mechanically
received the letter and put it on his pad.
" Venkat Rao," said the manager. " I'm sure you will be glad to hear this news. Our
officer discussed the question of increments today, and I've recommended you for an
increment of five rupees. Orders are not yet passed and so keep this to yourself for the
present." Venkat Rao put out his hand, snatched the envelope from the pad and hastily
slipped it in his pocket.
"What is that letter?"
" I have applied for a little casual leave, sir, but I think. . . ."
" You can't get any leave at least for a fortnight to come."
" Yes, sir. I realize that. That is why I am withdrawing my application, sir."
" Very well. Have you traced that mistake ? "
" I'm scrutinizing the vouchers, sir. I will find it out within an hour. . . ."
It was nine o'clock when he went home. Shanta had already slept. Her mother said, "
She wouldn't even change her frock, thinking that any moment you might be coming
and taking her out. She hardly ate any food ; and wouldn't lie down for fear of
crumpling her dress. . . ."
Venkat Rao's heart bled when he saw his child sleeping in her pink frock, hair combed,
and face powdered, dressed and ready to be taken out. " Why should I not take her to
the night show ? " He shook her gently and called, " Shanta, Shanta." Shanta kicked
her legs and cried, irritated at being disturbed. Mother whispered, " Don't wake her,"
and patted her back to sleep.
Venkat Rao watched the child for a moment. " I don't know if it is going to be possible
for me to take her out at all you see they are giving me an increment " he wailed.