Dairy: Day 29

The size of my gradually increasing waistline is my neighbours concern now. Much like my friends mid-life crisis has affected my life as well. Today it will be only about me, my insecurities as a forty year old woman trying to raise a six year old kid. There have been regular quarrels in my house as my husband visits her girlfriend too often. He is too kind hearted to the other woman in his life. She looks faded and smells like the mine and l am too preoccupied thinking of myself as the musk rose. Nonetheless there are prying people especially those who have lost their jobs in UK or US and have been forced to purchase a flat in this middle class area of Kolkata. They will try to give you interesting glimpses of their life from their travails in Persia and Turkey. Obviously l want to fly away from such people because my provincial ways expose my troubled relationship with my gender and my class of people. Nevertheless l am an ardent follower of Modiji and also admire Rahul Gandhi and l would want to extend my full fledged support to the members of BJP in their Nabano Abhijan. Mamata Banerjee's team has some of the most corrupted leaders of India. They have not only taken illegal money for sand mining but killed every channel of proper recruitment to Govt jobs. Thus it's people like us who have suffered who never wanted to walk the extra mile with comrades. They never knew that the world will only become dark for them after Mamata Banerjee 's ascension to the throne. I can only wish that if there was sufficient light we could have found out what is what. Once again it is the intellectual's burden, people who will never co-operate.